By Umm ‘Aisha
I had been waiting impatiently for this day; I had been trying to make it the ‘most special day’ of my entire existence. It’s been quite long, when I was informed of the due day and I was firstly terrified of it as I did not have any idea of preparing “best” for it, but then by time help came from ALLAH and I started preparing for it. The preparation was tough and difficult but no difficulty would stop me from thinking best for the special occasion. “How would I look that day? Where would I stand that day? How would I be sitting that day? With whom I would be chatting? Would I smile, laugh or just keep quiet? Will all eyes be on me? Will my face be among the brightest faces that day? Will my parents be proud of me? Feeling honored because of me? What would my response be, when my name will be called from the pages that are going to decide my future? Will I shiver or just hope? —and then I would think and hope best for my future home: how beautiful it would be? What comforts will it provide me? What provisions will be waiting for me? How would it look? Who will accompany me over there? How large my dwellings would be? How much gardens would it have? And what fruits would be there? How many smiles and laughers would surround me? And the most beautiful thoughts among all these would be about my meeting with my Beloved, how beautiful His face would be? How joyous that moment of meeting would be? How lucky I would feel to have seen Him? What will He talk to me about? May be of what I have been doing for Him whole of my life and what would I say: “Nothing but by Your Mercy and Grace”? How elegant His smile would be? How precious and delightful time it would be?
These are not my dreams but my expectations from my Beloved. I have not prepared enough for the final and most important meeting, but I have packed some love, fear and hope to accompany me along with the ticket of Faith (Imaan) in Him.
Now they have dressed me up for the meeting at last, and are taking me to the train I have to travel on, in this pure white dress, now I await the sound of the Call—I am aware that this Day would be extremely difficult but I await His Mercy (Rehmah), that is much more than His wrath.
Oh Allah, Bless me with a ticket from دار الغرور to دار السرور and save me from دار الشرور.
Oh Allah, make the best part of my life the last part, the best deed the last deed and the best day in which I meet You.