By Bint Salman
When you are at your worst and you feel as if your heart will almost burst.
The depressing thoughts come in train and make tears fall just like droplets of rain…
You walk around wearing a skin so think
leaving an impression that nothing has happened that could reveal your poor nick ,
Then your eyes fail restraint and the tears stream down uncontrolled…
Grabbing your aching chest you find a spot where you search for solace undisturbed…
Your heart fires with a velocity high, all the complaints which you make end on..
And the dua from a heart so broken goes straight up without any barrier on…
The soul talk with Creator works wonders, through the pain it makes you get up after the surrender..
It brings you back to the sweetness of the feeling..
Were you ever alone with his words acting on your wounds causing gentle healing?
‘So surely with difficulty is ease…
Surely with difficulty is ease..
By Umm ‘Aisha
She was a wealthy business woman, noblest in the area, strongest in her character but softest from her heart. She had experienced a lot of difficulties in her 40 years of life including the death of her noble father and facing widow-ship twice. She had grown old by now, but a gem like her would need protection. She was destined for the best of all men and was now the wife of Al-Ameen.
She knew that she was honored to be his wife, but it didn’t make her proud rather it added to her beauty. A real women- as she was, she handed over her business matters to her husband and felt satisfied with the role of a simple and devoted housewife.
Though she was elder in age, yet she assisted him so well that his heart was soon hers.
She would love serving him herself, fulfilling all his needs, ensuring his satisfaction, happiness and comfort. All this was not expected from a women of such high status, but she proved herself to be an ideal wife.
Time was flying smoothly when she would sense some disturbance. Khadija’s love, the center of her life, her beloved husband– didn’t seem peaceful, his eyes would search something that he didn’t know. He was still the best to his wife and family, but he had a spiritual thirst to be quenched. She would recognize all his questions but didn’t have any answer to them. She could also feel the same void in her heart, but his pain was more than hers. He had started loosing interest in worldly matters now and Khadija, once again had to handle the business. She could read her husband’s heart beats so well that she did not need to ask him any whys, whats and hows! All that concerned her, was Muhammad’s (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) life, his protection and peace of heart.
She would guard him outside Cave Hira when he would go there out of frustration, when he needed to be alone with his Lord. She would also look after the business, the children at home and all domestic matters while Muhammad (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) would watch the House of ALLAH from the mount wondering about the “Missing Element”. She dared not to utter a single sigh on the problems she was facing because of “The Change” her husband was going through.
She was standing beside him as a firm wall, when one night he came running towards her from Hira, trembling was his tone and all he would say was “Cover me up”. She didn’t question anything before comforting him, he had something strange to tell her. It would have shocked her that her Love was near death a while ago, but all she had to do was to support him. She showed full trust in ALLAH and relaxed him by saying that ALLAH would not leave him because he had a noble character.
Understanding the scenario as a matter related to heavens, she took him to her cousin who knew the earlier heavenly scriptures.
Everything was soon clear to the worried couple. But never did they imagine of facing extreme hardships out of their empathy for the people.The sun in the form of Islam had risen to conquer the darkness, and Muhammad was chosen as the Final Messenger of ALLAH, may Peace and Blessings of ALLAH be upon him.
His thirst was quenched and he was shown the right path now.
And He found you lost and guided [you] [93:7]
But every blessing comes with trials, so did this honor. Khadija trusted the words of her husband, accepted his Message and became the first Muslimah. She had the insight of the importance of her husband’s mission and it kept her firm on her support for Muhammad (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) The couple had to go through a list of trials only because they were delivering the True Message. She had always been the best emotional counselor for him (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) but now the need of her counseling had increased. He would come home with a heavy heart after listening to the allegations of his own people, who once used to call him As-Saadiq and Al-Ameen, and Khadija would remove all the pains and sufferings.
Situation was getting worse each day but it only added strength to the Imaan of Muhammad (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) and his followers. Khadija spent all her wealth for the cause of Islam and proved her sincerity to her husband. Her Imaan was strong enough to bear the pain of divorce for two of her daughters and the torture from the whole city. She never complained to Muhammad (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam), neither did she expressed any discomfort, she was still serving her husband as before. Her service to Islam and the Prophet (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) of Islam won her the tidings of Jannah in this world and ALLAH sent her “Salaam” from the seventh heaven. She helped the Prophet (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam) all her life and her belief was strengthened by time but the whirlpools of Shaiba-e- Abi Talib worsen her health, and she died at the end of the 3 years’ boycott.
Such was the character of the beloved wife of the last Prophet (Sal Allaahu ‘Alaihi Wasallam), Khadija (Radhi Allaahu ‘Anha).
May her soul rest in Peace. Aameen.
By Umm ‘Aisha
Sometimes all of a sudden- life changes, from being blessed to being wretched, from being at the top of the world to becoming down-trodden. All of a sudden we start facing problems in every single aspect of our life, everything we try- we fail in it. Be it physical, spiritual, familial, social, economical, psychological- you name it.
All of a sudden we see people who once loved us- are now betraying, the business we were experts at- is severely challenged, the family which was a support- has left us on our own, the health we adored- is now worn-out, the beauty we owned- has departed, leaving us ugly. All of a sudden we- who were looked up by people are now looked down upon- ALL OF A SUDDEN?!
How come is it ‘all of a sudden’?!
We start questioning the purpose of us- being alive, as if we don’t deserve life anymore. We don’t find any aim to live up for; we lose our passions- and start drowning into the episodes of Depression- the insomnias- the low appetite- the lack of interest in all meaningful things; crying and blaming become our new personality and we end up becoming introverts.
The cycle goes on until we wake up! Wake up from the deceptive sleep, and try to find out the actual WHY!
After failing in all our efforts, tired of always ending-up in nowhere, when all resources eventually back-out and we are in complete darkness of despair, we feel the Only open Door- that One Door which we have forgotten through-out our struggle. The Door we should have knocked in the beginning. And then we realize the truth of: There is no Might except with Al-Qadir, there is no way except with Al-Haadi, there is no comforter except The One who removes all the evil, there is no healer except Ash-Shaafi, there is no business and job except with Ar-Razzaq, and there is no love except with Al-Wadood.
And we find out the actual answer of our WHYS:
“And whoever turns away from My remembrance – indeed, he will have a depressed life, and We will gather him on the Day of Resurrection blind.” [20:124]
Isn’t this true? Isn’t it the ‘actual reason’? Isn’t it the correct answer to all our Whys?
Yes! It is.
But it doesn’t end here- it doesn’t increase the guilt and leaves us to commit suicide. It wasn’t because He s.w.t hates us, it wasn’t because He had disowned us when we went away from Him and it wasn’t because He had stopped loving us like the rest of the world. For He is our only Well-wisher and He explains the reason why we went into that depressive mode- why didn’t He help us out of our problems and why He wanted us to fall in all those pains-
And We have already sent (messengers) to nations before you, then We seized them with poverty and hardship that perhaps they might humble themselves (to Us). [6:42]
So now we know that all those hardships were to make us humble- to make us remember that only purpose for which we were created- to make us go back to the One we came from and to make us say:
إِنَّا لِلَّهِ وَإِنَّا إِلَيْهِ رَاجِعُونَ
Indeed we belong to Allah , and indeed to Him we will return. [2:156]
Lets then go back and repent- and cry- and feel ashamed on forgetting Him, on forgetting the purpose of our being and lets witness His Mercy again, lets enjoy His countless blessings once again and lets see how much He cares for us and how much He loves us. And also- lets not forget Him again. In sha ALLAH.
اسْتَغْفِرُوا رَبَّكُمْ إِنَّهُ كَانَ غَفَّارًا
يُرْسِلِ السَّمَاءَ عَلَيْكُم مِّدْرَارًا
وَيُمْدِدْكُم بِأَمْوَالٍ وَبَنِينَ وَيَجْعَل لَّكُمْ جَنَّاتٍ وَيَجْعَل لَّكُمْ أَنْهَارًا
Ask forgiveness of your Lord. Indeed, He is ever a Perpetual Forgiver.
He will send [rain from] the sky upon you in [continuing] showers
And give you increase in wealth and children and provide for you gardens and provide for you rivers. [71:10-12]
And we shouldn’t worry thinking: if ALLAH will accept us back or not- for if we are alive and if our breaths are intact, He is waiting for our ‘come-back’, for our repentance and He is ready to welcome us with all His Rehmah and blessings.
O son of Adam, so long as you call upon Me and ask of Me, I shall forgive you for what you have done, and I shall not mind. O son of Adam, were your sins to reach the clouds of the sky and were you then to ask forgiveness of Me, I would forgive you. [Hadith Qudsi]
By Umm ‘Aisha
I had been waiting impatiently for this day; I had been trying to make it the ‘most special day’ of my entire existence. It’s been quite long, when I was informed of the due day and I was firstly terrified of it as I did not have any idea of preparing “best” for it, but then by time help came from ALLAH and I started preparing for it. The preparation was tough and difficult but no difficulty would stop me from thinking best for the special occasion. “How would I look that day? Where would I stand that day? How would I be sitting that day? With whom I would be chatting? Would I smile, laugh or just keep quiet? Will all eyes be on me? Will my face be among the brightest faces that day? Will my parents be proud of me? Feeling honored because of me? What would my response be, when my name will be called from the pages that are going to decide my future? Will I shiver or just hope? —and then I would think and hope best for my future home: how beautiful it would be? What comforts will it provide me? What provisions will be waiting for me? How would it look? Who will accompany me over there? How large my dwellings would be? How much gardens would it have? And what fruits would be there? How many smiles and laughers would surround me? And the most beautiful thoughts among all these would be about my meeting with my Beloved, how beautiful His face would be? How joyous that moment of meeting would be? How lucky I would feel to have seen Him? What will He talk to me about? May be of what I have been doing for Him whole of my life and what would I say: “Nothing but by Your Mercy and Grace”? How elegant His smile would be? How precious and delightful time it would be?
These are not my dreams but my expectations from my Beloved. I have not prepared enough for the final and most important meeting, but I have packed some love, fear and hope to accompany me along with the ticket of Faith (Imaan) in Him.
Now they have dressed me up for the meeting at last, and are taking me to the train I have to travel on, in this pure white dress, now I await the sound of the Call—I am aware that this Day would be extremely difficult but I await His Mercy (Rehmah), that is much more than His wrath.
Oh Allah, Bless me with a ticket from دار الغرور to دار السرور and save me from دار الشرور.
Oh Allah, make the best part of my life the last part, the best deed the last deed and the best day in which I meet You.